See Yeah

just gonna pretend that i have been writing everyday and carry on with a post.. sorry for the lack of them :(

Toad has never ever been good with goodbye's. He cries, freaks out and or will not say those words. So when he was little his Nonna and Papa started something that made it a bit easier on him and helped Rob and I get him to the car. They would come to the driveway to say goodbye (even in the dead of winter), they would wave and do "their special" I love you as we drove out. We would roll down Jax window and they would point to their eye, then their heart then to him and the whole time yelling I LOVE YOU.

We used this for daycare too as he had trouble saying goodbye. I would stand at the door point to my eye, point to my heart then to him and say I LOVE YOU. Then he would back up I run up the stairs and do it again.(all through a window) I LOVE YOU then we wave and say have a good day (he says it too) and I love you , have a good day I love you 2x and then i say bye and he runs off to play. We never miss a day of this routine as it makes him happy and he feels better saying goodbye.

Little did I know how much this meant to me! Friday he said Bye mom, Have a good day from the play area. I said um Toad want to head to the door to do "our goodbye" he didn't even look at me and just said um no! Have a good day mom.

So i left , it didn't really bother me but today he did it again. Bye have a good one mom is what he said to me. Lovely and I are home today so we headed up the stairs and I stopped at the top tears filling my eyes as I knew that special moment each day is gone. I turned and hoped he would be there (he wasn't) and I said bye i love you, have a good day toad..

Why is he getting so big? Why is it so hard on me? Why do i want him to grow up but then in a second feel like I want him to be little FOREVER!


Toad this little moment each day made me smile. it was our thing, it was our way to start the day with love. I can picture you so small your little chubby fingers pointing to your eye and heart and then to me. Now I see you and your fingers are thinning and your growing so tall I can't wait to find our new moments. I will work hard to figure out what that looks like for Big boys ! But thanks for each and every awesome moment over the last 4 years xoxoxo

Lovely Turnes One

yeah yeah it happened 14 days ago I am sorry sweet girl...

So a year old! WOW where did the time go?? Camryn you my sweets are just a joy to be around. The last year has been some of the best times in my life, I have loved watching you figure out this world. I love that you are sweet and loving but will not sit quiet if something is happening you don't like. I have loved watched you in 365 short days make two boys fall madly, deeply and fully in love with you.

I have loved watching you perfect your wrinkled up nose smile which your Aunt P loves so much.

I have enjoyed our midnight meetings but am happy to see them get less and less since you are in daycare.

I have found your relationship with Jax to be one that I get excited to watch , you two can make each other laugh and scream in angry all in the same breath.. ah makes me think of my sister I love you Cherie xoxox

Camryn I hope you continue to light up, I hope you find joy in each day as you do now. I hope that when your older you know how cute you are as you do know. I hope you know that your dad and brother are the way they are cuss you made them fall in love with you and that they are only looking out for you. I hope you laugh easy and smile often as you have this year. I hope you take as much time as you need to do stuff (like you are with walking....) I hope you never forget that we love you, that we are here for you and that your one of the best things your dad and I ever did...

Well Lovely this past year has been just that Truly Lovely xoxoxooxoxoxox

Love ya buds!
Mom

The theme was the Princess and the Frog.. Thanks P for the awesome Cake!